Spring Twenty12, Clarity

Right now, you’re laying next to me sleeping. I dimmed my phone light so ii don’t wake you. If you wakeup right now and see me on the phone, it’s an argument, guaranteed, lol The fan drowns out my fingers typing on my phones keyboard. Your blonde hair covers most of your face as you sleep, and ii can’t stop looking at you. You know that I’m a fan of blacc/brunette hair but I swear you’re even hotter now, when ii didn’t think it could even be possible. Our lives outside of being together are chaotic and the line that keeps them from tainting our love life is virtually nonexistent. Right now it feel’s like everything that isn’t you or my daughter, is trying to emotionally consume me whole. The genuine happiness I get from the sheer thought of you is fighting with sadness and mourning that doesn’t feel like it’s ever going away. Dealing with me in general is literally two handfuls and we won’t even talk about the other drama you inherited when you & ii became us. The fact you’re still here with me, speaks volumes of my place in your heart. I’m a real good judge of people and ii fear that I’m going to get worst before brighter days return. Don’t know where your breaking point is but if you somehow manage to the survive this, shades of my worst, I will make you the happiest woman to ever live. You just put your arm on me, so I’m going to wrap this up. I wish I was more traditional sometimes so that my unpredictability wouldn’t have you on guard so much. Know that you are thee only one for me and ii knew the instant we met. Earlier we were talking about songs that remind us of each other. I have so many but if ii had to choose one at this moment, it be Aaliyah’s, “I don’t wanna be alone” because life without you me would make me feel just that. If something happens to where we aren’t together in ten years, just know that we should be…R